Bright is the sun again
My face basks in it
The ice within melts
And a rose I become
Birds sing as I step out
Smiles I share as I walk past
For once, everything around
Is how it should be
Soaring notes take my spirit
Sweet laughter fills my ears
For just this day, evil is dead
And beauty is all around
I am a statue
Standing still
Eyes without use
Heart without a beat
Made my home on sand
The sun on my shoulders
Letting my feet sink
Accepting the inevitable death
Water lapped around my ankles
For years I thought everything was barren
I turned around and there it was
A moving sheet of diamonds
This desert behind me
Seems more beautiful than ever
The motion scared me
But I have wanted change
At last I took a step forward
The other foot after an eternity
Tempted by the unknown
Speed was gained
Heart first into the water
I closed my eyes
And dived deep into
A sea of you
Gears in your head moving too fast
Smoke emerges as it strains to function
Fills your brain, slows it down
Wraps your heart, freezes it
Knees to chest, looking for heat
Eyes blinded, searching for support
The cold is gone
You’re drowning in your own hot blood
A thin silver string around my neck
Part of your heart hanging
Aren’t you looking for it?
It rests on mine
Guarding it with tears of my soul
When you realize that you are incomplete
We will both become whole.
Be a ghost.
Whisper to my ear that you love me.
When I ask again, I won’t hear any response.
I know I wasn’t imagining things.
Then you’ll say it again.
Then I’ll ask again.
I will continue waiting
Until I hear a reply
Until I feel your arms wrap around me.
Write your wish on a cigarette.
Seal it with a kiss. Light it.
Feed it to the heavens.
Let them finish all of it.
Their own hearts fill with smoke.
At last, they will understand.
Your soul is now theirs.
They will feel what you feel.
They will despair.
I feel warm inside though I’m alone
But at night the cold creeps in and freezes me.
I see the bright colors of the trees
Sometimes, I don’t even at broad daylight.
I sing the sweetest melodies but listen closely
My heart’s cracking is all there really is.
I let myself fall apart but as the sun rises,
My spirit soars with it.
Something makes me roar like a lion
But that same thing makes me cower like a pup.
You evil thing! Stop playing with me.
I am either a god or a devil.
I lay there warm and still.
In your arms I found safety
Like nowhere else.
This is my home.
Nightmares didn’t bother me.
Storms calmed down.
I gathered strength.
I was fearless.
You unwrapped yourself from me.
I fell apart and lay shivering.
I was tortured. I was lost.
I am dead.
It is I, not you, who make the strings
of your instrument sound.
You think it is your arm?
Think again, my dear.
When you were a babe I held you
You were falling. I caught you.
I made your arm move gracefully
And made you play beautifully.
You were dropping it but
I held your hand while you gripped it
Your eyes were closed and afraid
I stood you up and whispered to peek.
And now you have forgotten me
Hate me even but I haven’t cursed you.
It is still by my prayers
That your strings are not cut.
When the first star at night comes out
Well isn’t that a miracle
A tiny star has conquered the void
And brings hope to many
It signals untroubled skies
And a calm breeze
It unclutters the heart
Hears its deepest wish
